First things first: Cutting and burning and killing yourself makes you weak. Not the other way around. You actually deal with your eomtions and thoughts in a healthy, productive way.

Writing.

There is nothing better than using your talents to let your feelings out. It doesn't hurt you or anyone else and it feels great to let them go.

You're not pathetic. You're a teenager. We have so many high school soap operas on tv for a reason. Being a teen is hard!! We get puberty and all the barrel of monkeys that come with it. We deal with drama, teen angst, friend issues, relationships, school-work and much more! Adolescence is a time for learning, discovering and understanding your body and how it works. Our minds grow and thrive, taking in knowledge and wisdom from what we learn everyday we step outside our front door.

I've been there with the friend thing, believe me I have. I used to feel like I was the only person who wasn't a total nutcase. But the thing about friends is that you can have different kinds of friends, they don't all understand you equally.

For example, there are some friends who might save you a seat in Maths class and ask to borrow your ruler or something. You may have an idle chat or two, moan about school but nothing really personal goes on in the relationship.

This is normal.

You may hang out with a group of people, people who can gossip with, maybe go swimming together, have a party or two. The more there are of you, the harder it will be to get along with smoothly. People clash, it's in our nature to. You may be in a fight with one of the girls and your other friends may start taking sides. Maybe YOU are the one who is forced to take sides and you might not even care in the first place. These groups can be tricky to deal with and I don't recommend spilling all your deepest, darkest secrets to them. A select few, maybe the people you trust the most, but don't feel you have to be super close with everyone.

And then there are the select few who are the real gems. They give you safe, secure hugs, tell you their insecurities and fears, hopes and dreams, they're there for you when you need a shoulder to cry on or need some cheering up. They know about you and they understand you and they don't judge. They'll forgive you for the stuff you've done and in return you'll find it in your heart to forgive them for what they do. You may have your ups and downs but you'll know at the end of the day, they'll be there.

Whether you have found these people or not is up to you. I just want to give you something that took me a looooooong time to learn. Good luck with life!

You may be confused and upset now, but soon you'll realize your purpose or your calling, or something that appeals to you. Writing, if you really love it, will eventually give you the oasis you need, and if you don't, you'll find something you do. Just fight through the rough patches. Everything will turn out alright. Don't give up.

Hey, I know how youre feeling. You gotta keep swimming, otherwise, people will start giving up too.